My communication skills have always been my weakest link, my ability to get across how I truly think and feel without diminishing my feelings or blowing them out of proportion. While it’s not something I like to talk about I don’t feel like I can tell many people how I truly feel because I’ll say it the wrong way or I don’t even honestly know what that feeling is.
This has been my weakest point when leading a team. Communicating effectively to my team about what I believe, why I do what I do and how I do it is a daily battle for me. The next step is even harder, putting KPI’s, tasks and guidelines in place so that they know what they are doing, what is expected of them and where my boundaries are is something I’m continually working on.
Especially in a small business, where we are all a little family, we do care about each other on a personal level. Having to follow through on rewards is easy, I love that I want to give my team everything they could possibly want. Having to put in place expectations and boundaries and then follow through on them is the hardest thing.
Through all of these ups and downs being able to say what you truly think and feel is incredibly difficult for me, but then it’s not about me at all… is it. Which is a relief, I know that as long as I continue to believe in and work for cause that is greater than myself, it doesn’t matter if I say the wrong thing or communicate in the wrong way.
Of course that doesn’t mean don’t try, it means the opposite, it means that I can get the fuel and drive to try and try again because I get to serve a cause greater than myself.