So, mid May, someone nominated me for the Telstra Business Women’s Awards (I still don’t know who)… an award I never would have thought to enter myself in. I looked at some of the previous finalists and winners and immediately thought, “who was this crazy person, I can’t be in that club, these women are amazing and I’m just me. I haven’t done anything.”
However, I also thought, “get over your silly self doubt and do the entry…” hours and hours and many emotions later I got my submission in on time. It was one of the hardest award application processes I have been through. It also forced me to stop and analyse everything about who I am, why I do what I do and actually what I have achieved over the last 5 years. The process also asks for referrals from mentors, colleagues and staff… so you have to be honest and open about yourself, and you have to ask other people in your life, people you love and respect, to do the same.
The length and breadth of the questions has lead me down such an interesting path, to the point now where I realise that I have actually been able to accomplish a lot of amazing things over the last 5 years. I am actually making an impact. I am helping people and helping them to make changes in their individual lives.
I also realised just how much I would not have been able to do without awesome people in my life. I wouldn’t be anywhere near where I am today without my husband and business partner Skeeve Stevens. I couldn’t have done any of this without my awesome team of staff, or the amazing group of people and mentors I have in my life who have pushed me and forced me out of my comfort zone.
Often in my daily life I get caught up in my head about all the mistakes I make or anything I could have or should have done better. This process forces you to think on the larger scale, and objectively look over the last 5 years of your life and acknowledge changes that you have made and own them.
I understand that this is a business award, maybe it isn’t supposed to bring so much emotion, but the truth is, for Skeeve and I, we put our heart into all my businesses, each business is just a different expression of who we are and our interests and varying expertise. All our business at their hearts empower people by intersecting technology and lightbulb moments and enabling them to grow and change. Wether this is helping a large company stay ahead of the times, a small service provider business diversify it’s offering it’s client’s by empowering them with an elastic ISP core, or provide an NGO with a good quality space to train their staff and clients in Cambodia.
After going through this process I can honestly say I am so proud of what we have done together over the last 5 years and I am really excited to see what the next 5 years brings. It’s funny how this deadline forced me out of my motivational slump and into a turbocharged person who excited to keep going and making more of an impact.
So regardless of how the award process actually goes I’m so happy that I completed the entry and I’m excited for next year when I can recommend other women for the same award.